Well today it has been 3 months since my surgery. My sleeve still amazes me everyday and it is a fabulous tool that I have been provided with.
I have lsot 47.6 pounds (4.40 lbs from being half way to goal) I have lost 42.5 inches too
WOW-- My jaw still hits the floor with that. I have gone down 4 pant sizes so far.
My looser skin on my legs and stomach are starting to resemble a Sharpei ( wrinkly dog). I have loads of energy and instead of say to someone else (whihc I did all the time) to get me something or go do something for me, I get up and do it or get it myself.
I am able to dance around with my eldest grand-daughter who will be 3 on October 11th. She thinks Gammy is fun and I know I am now lol
I thrive on my new outlook, I conquered my fears that I had previously but not any longer. I love when someone compliments me. I don't turn away from it any longer. My once co-wroker calls me the incredible shrinking woman and says I look great and I say thank you but I already know that ;-)
I haven't loved myself in a very long time, that is up until now. Mixed emotions and feelings have always kep me down BUT no longer.
I have the right to be healthy. I have the right to live my life the way I see fit.
I have the right to make choices for myself and not feel guilty when I do.
I have the right to surround myself with people who love me and leave the nay sayers by the curb side.
I am fabulous in all ways and I rock!!!! ( you don't know how long or how much effort it has taken me to get to this point but I am here so get use to it)
LIVE life, LOVE lots and LAUGH often.
Here's to everyone who has been sleeved, waiting to be sleeved or just starting to think about being sleeved. It's been a wild ride thus far but it's the destination that I am after.
Cheers!!!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
One month Surgiversary
Well, it's been one month since I had my sleeve done(VSG). I've lost 31 lbs and 18 inches so far. The amount that I can eat is about 75% less than before the surgery. I drink my water, at least I try to drink above my lower limit. And had been slacking taking my vitamins, but that changed today. I haven't really had any carbs unless its been in the fruits, veggies and proteins that I have.
I really have thoughts about gaining the weight back...what if it happens to me, what if the surgery really doesn't help me as a tool to lose my weight, what if it wasn't done correctly? I have to stop iffing all over myself and take this day by day.
I feel blessed to have had the WLS and I will try everything and listen to my dr's and nutritionist advice to continue working my sleeve. I get moments of panic but talk myself through it and usually feel better after I have voiced my concerns on a the great support forum I found www.obesityhelp.com
There are a lot of people who have gone through this wls as well as other surgeries. We are all there to support each other and share our experiences. Not sure I would have made it up to this point had I not find that forum.
Will take a new picture soon to show my progress. I have a before picture and it scares me a little looking back a month ago.
I really have thoughts about gaining the weight back...what if it happens to me, what if the surgery really doesn't help me as a tool to lose my weight, what if it wasn't done correctly? I have to stop iffing all over myself and take this day by day.
I feel blessed to have had the WLS and I will try everything and listen to my dr's and nutritionist advice to continue working my sleeve. I get moments of panic but talk myself through it and usually feel better after I have voiced my concerns on a the great support forum I found www.obesityhelp.com
There are a lot of people who have gone through this wls as well as other surgeries. We are all there to support each other and share our experiences. Not sure I would have made it up to this point had I not find that forum.
Will take a new picture soon to show my progress. I have a before picture and it scares me a little looking back a month ago.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
July 7 2010
Well I weigh 248.8 pounds now. I started at 274. I am amazed at my own progress. I haven't been this weight in over 5 years. I can hardly contain myself with glee.
I got sleeved on June 29th which was a Tuesday and I got back home on Canada Day which was that Thursday.
I was tired for a few days after getting home, and feeling sore but now I have been gardening and weeding for the last couple of days, resting in between of course.
The fluid levels I have been great with, it's the protein shakes that I can't seem to do. I mean I haven't had a protein shake in 2 days. The last one I had went right through me, but I will try again today now that I can mix in some fruits and puree it in.
Went to visit my mom yesterday, as my dad was just at my place earlier doing some work for me since I can't lift more than 10 lbs for awhile and he was installing an AC. I told my mom about my weight loss and she gave me a disgusted look and never said a word about that but she did however, say well if you would just follow a good program you would have lost the weight.
Helllooooooooooooo mom, I said. What the heck do you think I have been doing for the last 20 years and look where that has got me. I said you don't have things stacked against you. I do. I take after my dads side of the family from obesity and all other ailments including my blood type of RH -. Good thing I am taller than my aunts by at least 9", as then I would be a round ball (like them) instead of the pear shape I am.
I feel so happy with my decision and that I did the WLS.
More to come.................
Cheers!!
I got sleeved on June 29th which was a Tuesday and I got back home on Canada Day which was that Thursday.
I was tired for a few days after getting home, and feeling sore but now I have been gardening and weeding for the last couple of days, resting in between of course.
The fluid levels I have been great with, it's the protein shakes that I can't seem to do. I mean I haven't had a protein shake in 2 days. The last one I had went right through me, but I will try again today now that I can mix in some fruits and puree it in.
Went to visit my mom yesterday, as my dad was just at my place earlier doing some work for me since I can't lift more than 10 lbs for awhile and he was installing an AC. I told my mom about my weight loss and she gave me a disgusted look and never said a word about that but she did however, say well if you would just follow a good program you would have lost the weight.
Helllooooooooooooo mom, I said. What the heck do you think I have been doing for the last 20 years and look where that has got me. I said you don't have things stacked against you. I do. I take after my dads side of the family from obesity and all other ailments including my blood type of RH -. Good thing I am taller than my aunts by at least 9", as then I would be a round ball (like them) instead of the pear shape I am.
I feel so happy with my decision and that I did the WLS.
More to come.................
Cheers!!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
July 4 2010 - Six days after being sleeved
June 29th I was sleeved. First night and second day were the worse and I felt like crap but have improved so much since then. I got up to drinking about 48oz of water which is great.
I went for a walk today as the humidity had gone way done since yesterday. I even weeded my garden, taking my time of course and it felt great to be outside.
My stay at the Victoria Hospital was great. I was the second patient to have the VSG done in Winnipeg. The 'program', which I believe, is sponsored by the University of Manitoba and at no cost to me, was done magnificently. Small rooms but the staff were fantastic and treated me like a princess. Kudos to them. Each nurse/attendant/physiotherapist that looked after me, made it a very comfortable stay and I am thankful for that.
I am excited about this new life that has been given to me....I will make the best of it and I have no doubt about that.
Life is precious in so many ways and I won't waste my second chance no matter what.
Cheers!!!!
I went for a walk today as the humidity had gone way done since yesterday. I even weeded my garden, taking my time of course and it felt great to be outside.
My stay at the Victoria Hospital was great. I was the second patient to have the VSG done in Winnipeg. The 'program', which I believe, is sponsored by the University of Manitoba and at no cost to me, was done magnificently. Small rooms but the staff were fantastic and treated me like a princess. Kudos to them. Each nurse/attendant/physiotherapist that looked after me, made it a very comfortable stay and I am thankful for that.
I am excited about this new life that has been given to me....I will make the best of it and I have no doubt about that.
Life is precious in so many ways and I won't waste my second chance no matter what.
Cheers!!!!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Day before Surgery June 28 th
Wow, this still feels surreal. I will begin a new chapter of my life tomorrow and I can't explain all the emotions that are running through me at any given time.
I've started saying prayers (so unlike me) to a higher power so that I come through this with no complications and that my kids will still have me around physically and mentally. This I think is the only thing that is really worrying me at this point. I am not ready to leave this world as I still have so much left to accomplish.
It's almost like a catch 22 here: I mean if I didn't have the surgery, the obesity would claim my life early and I wouldn't be around to see the things and be part of the things that really matter to me (Family and the love of my life Alex, and close friends)
I have my youngest to graduate high school in 9 years. I have 2 grand daughters that I need to watch grow. I need to see my girls married off or at least to a life long partner. This includes my grandbabies. I need to see them happy, content and satisfied.
I will be taking my youngest out of school for the afternoon, by her request, to spend time together before tomorrow. We will be watching a movie "Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs" and just hanging out for the afternoon. I am hoping my 18 yo will hang with us too but she does have an essay due tomorrow for University so and assuming that she will be going to that. She is a procrastinator but she gets it done.
I am very proud of all my girls. They have been and always will be great joys of my life. I have no regrets where they are concerned. They are beautiful people inside and out, caring and loving and they are so like me in different ways without them really realizing it.
Well back to the macabre: I don't have a will. I know my kids don't like talking about it but I figure we have to some time, so let this stand as a living will of sorts.
Alex K, the love of my life, will be the executor of my will. I trust Alex to see that things are followed through to the end.
My oldest Felicia, is beneficiary currently, as at the time I filled that out for work, she was the only one of legal age.
Sheena and Sydney should get money from that to live on in case something happens to me (which it won't). In any case, under no circumstances, is Sydney to go live with her biological father. He's a "recovering" (using the term lightly) alcoholic, can't take care of himself let alone Sydney.
Sydney would not be happy or healthy in his current or future relationships. If Sheena or Felicia cannot take Sydney for what ever reason, then I want Syd to be looked after by Alex K. He has agreed to this previously when this conversation had come up.
And in case , very slight chance that I don't come through, I hope my mother is happy that the last conversation that she had with me, she called me stupid....that has been her thing for my entire life and has never been behind me at any time. My dad has always been there for me even if he didn't agree with me---his thing was "you make your bed, you lay in it" and that was that. He has never called me down. And I love him immensely. I do love my mom too even though we have never seen eye to eye.
On to the brighter things: again my new life chapter begins tomorrow at 0745 (scheduled surgery time). My two youngest are the ones dropping me off at the hospital. I will bring a couple of books (novels) to read if I feel up to it. I want to get a TV for the days that I am in the hospital.
I even gave myself a pedicure two days ago with a deep bright orange for nail polish. I am off work until July 12th. I took that time as vacation time even though its not the kind of vacation I was planning lol Not the tropical island I was hoping for, but that will come next year, with Alex.
So the fasting starts at midnight tonight: Have lots of things to do before tomorrow--like grocery shopping for my girls, laundry, packing my tiny bag, which won't have many things included, and last minute things to keep me occupied so that I may be able to sleep tonight.
Will be going shortly to meet my son in law at a U Haul location for a truck rental and then at Felicia's request, I will be going to her house to visit, as she won't see me otherwise before tomorrow.
Will ramble on more later probably, as this seems to help me calm down some what.
Cheers!!
I've started saying prayers (so unlike me) to a higher power so that I come through this with no complications and that my kids will still have me around physically and mentally. This I think is the only thing that is really worrying me at this point. I am not ready to leave this world as I still have so much left to accomplish.
It's almost like a catch 22 here: I mean if I didn't have the surgery, the obesity would claim my life early and I wouldn't be around to see the things and be part of the things that really matter to me (Family and the love of my life Alex, and close friends)
I have my youngest to graduate high school in 9 years. I have 2 grand daughters that I need to watch grow. I need to see my girls married off or at least to a life long partner. This includes my grandbabies. I need to see them happy, content and satisfied.
I will be taking my youngest out of school for the afternoon, by her request, to spend time together before tomorrow. We will be watching a movie "Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs" and just hanging out for the afternoon. I am hoping my 18 yo will hang with us too but she does have an essay due tomorrow for University so and assuming that she will be going to that. She is a procrastinator but she gets it done.
I am very proud of all my girls. They have been and always will be great joys of my life. I have no regrets where they are concerned. They are beautiful people inside and out, caring and loving and they are so like me in different ways without them really realizing it.
Well back to the macabre: I don't have a will. I know my kids don't like talking about it but I figure we have to some time, so let this stand as a living will of sorts.
Alex K, the love of my life, will be the executor of my will. I trust Alex to see that things are followed through to the end.
My oldest Felicia, is beneficiary currently, as at the time I filled that out for work, she was the only one of legal age.
Sheena and Sydney should get money from that to live on in case something happens to me (which it won't). In any case, under no circumstances, is Sydney to go live with her biological father. He's a "recovering" (using the term lightly) alcoholic, can't take care of himself let alone Sydney.
Sydney would not be happy or healthy in his current or future relationships. If Sheena or Felicia cannot take Sydney for what ever reason, then I want Syd to be looked after by Alex K. He has agreed to this previously when this conversation had come up.
And in case , very slight chance that I don't come through, I hope my mother is happy that the last conversation that she had with me, she called me stupid....that has been her thing for my entire life and has never been behind me at any time. My dad has always been there for me even if he didn't agree with me---his thing was "you make your bed, you lay in it" and that was that. He has never called me down. And I love him immensely. I do love my mom too even though we have never seen eye to eye.
On to the brighter things: again my new life chapter begins tomorrow at 0745 (scheduled surgery time). My two youngest are the ones dropping me off at the hospital. I will bring a couple of books (novels) to read if I feel up to it. I want to get a TV for the days that I am in the hospital.
I even gave myself a pedicure two days ago with a deep bright orange for nail polish. I am off work until July 12th. I took that time as vacation time even though its not the kind of vacation I was planning lol Not the tropical island I was hoping for, but that will come next year, with Alex.
So the fasting starts at midnight tonight: Have lots of things to do before tomorrow--like grocery shopping for my girls, laundry, packing my tiny bag, which won't have many things included, and last minute things to keep me occupied so that I may be able to sleep tonight.
Will be going shortly to meet my son in law at a U Haul location for a truck rental and then at Felicia's request, I will be going to her house to visit, as she won't see me otherwise before tomorrow.
Will ramble on more later probably, as this seems to help me calm down some what.
Cheers!!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Date Confirmed
My date has been confirmed. June 29th at 7:45 I start the medifast on June 15 2010. Only a few people know of this surgery. The rest of my family including my mom would only judge me and I don't need anything like that ---I just want the support of those that really know me and know what I have gone through. My kids know, my loving and very very supportive boyfriend know as well as my real true best friend (other than my boyfriend).
I have loads of emotions going through me, but its all good. I can't wait and have been doing loads of reading and have joined Obesity Help. This site is a wealth of information and I have made a few local friends that are having the VSG as well.
It's happening so quick and it feels like I won the lottery (even though I have never won an actual lottery to compare this feeling to)
I still find this surreal and waiting to wake up from a great dream.
I am trying not to put too much into this until the day of the surgery. Scared that if I think too much about it, it won't happen. Somedays I am scared to dream about how I will feel and look after the surgery. I have loads of clothes that are in my closet that I haven't worn for years and years, so will eventually will start digging them out and gauge where I want to be.
Wish me luck and think of me from time to time to see how things are going.
Will try to blog more often, but I tend to forget or I get too much happening all at once to want to work on a computer after I finish working on a computer all day at work.
Cheers!!!
I have loads of emotions going through me, but its all good. I can't wait and have been doing loads of reading and have joined Obesity Help. This site is a wealth of information and I have made a few local friends that are having the VSG as well.
It's happening so quick and it feels like I won the lottery (even though I have never won an actual lottery to compare this feeling to)
I still find this surreal and waiting to wake up from a great dream.
I am trying not to put too much into this until the day of the surgery. Scared that if I think too much about it, it won't happen. Somedays I am scared to dream about how I will feel and look after the surgery. I have loads of clothes that are in my closet that I haven't worn for years and years, so will eventually will start digging them out and gauge where I want to be.
Wish me luck and think of me from time to time to see how things are going.
Will try to blog more often, but I tend to forget or I get too much happening all at once to want to work on a computer after I finish working on a computer all day at work.
Cheers!!!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Initial Dietitian Consult
First line off my LSG (VSG) bible states: "Congratulations on making the decision to take control of your health!"
I still feel good about my decision to accept this procedure to help change my life. I have only told my boyfriend and my two eldest children, my youngest one knows that I will be having surgery but wouldn't understand what the procedure is all about so just tell her that I am having some stomache issues looked after.
I haven't told anyone else because I do not need to hear negativity from those who don't know how long I have been struggling with weight issues (last 20 years).
It will be an interesting road when my surgery date is set.
Two weeks prior I will only be able to consume 3 protein shakes and 2 cups of "above ground" vegetables and all the water and balck tea I want. I know it will be difficult to cut out food like that but if I don't do it, they will not be able to do the wls. The purpose of this pre-op diet is so that the liver will shrink by about 30%, cause most people my size and heavier have fatty livers.
If the liver is in the way, then the surgery can't be performed.
Medi-trim is the preferred protein powder/shake for pre-op nutrients. It replaces Optifast.
It is amazing the amount of things that I will have to do but must remember that the most important part is to drink water and be a mindful eater.
It is learning to eat all over again, starting with water and protein shakes when able to (baby formula) pureed food for the next step (baby food in a jar) and then the next step is to eat mushy food with very tiny chunks of food in it (toddler food in a jar).
Depending on how I react to water after surgery will depend on when I can start the protein shakes.
I am doing as much research as I possibly can and have joined a website called Obesity Help which is a bariatric/weight loss site. This way I can ask all the questions I want regarding my type of wls.
I am nervous but still okay with my decision......more to follow.
Take care
I still feel good about my decision to accept this procedure to help change my life. I have only told my boyfriend and my two eldest children, my youngest one knows that I will be having surgery but wouldn't understand what the procedure is all about so just tell her that I am having some stomache issues looked after.
I haven't told anyone else because I do not need to hear negativity from those who don't know how long I have been struggling with weight issues (last 20 years).
It will be an interesting road when my surgery date is set.
Two weeks prior I will only be able to consume 3 protein shakes and 2 cups of "above ground" vegetables and all the water and balck tea I want. I know it will be difficult to cut out food like that but if I don't do it, they will not be able to do the wls. The purpose of this pre-op diet is so that the liver will shrink by about 30%, cause most people my size and heavier have fatty livers.
If the liver is in the way, then the surgery can't be performed.
Medi-trim is the preferred protein powder/shake for pre-op nutrients. It replaces Optifast.
It is amazing the amount of things that I will have to do but must remember that the most important part is to drink water and be a mindful eater.
It is learning to eat all over again, starting with water and protein shakes when able to (baby formula) pureed food for the next step (baby food in a jar) and then the next step is to eat mushy food with very tiny chunks of food in it (toddler food in a jar).
Depending on how I react to water after surgery will depend on when I can start the protein shakes.
I am doing as much research as I possibly can and have joined a website called Obesity Help which is a bariatric/weight loss site. This way I can ask all the questions I want regarding my type of wls.
I am nervous but still okay with my decision......more to follow.
Take care
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